I’m losing confidence
surrendering
i make a decent attempt
for none
it channels me
my futile exertion

a day by day fight inside
the weights of present day man
as week look for, so might we discover
on the other hand more suitably
once a casualty, dependably a casualty

confidence
a profane word to the ears of the sad
i push so hard
what’s more, i simply get pushed back
where does my exertion pay off?

it doesn’t
it never has
i supplicated as a tyke
trusted as a pre-adult
presently i ponder as a grown-up
to no end

i can’t consider whatever else to compose
also, i’m losing my confidence